I never said yes more quickly than I did this week.
A few days ago I wrote a blog about the loneliness of the summer season. I was struggling with feelings of depression in my mind and heart. And I was struggling to see the goodness of God in this season.
Then on Thursday, my centre offered me a permanent position with full employee benefits that is beginning next week.
Before the offer was completely spoken, I said, “Yes!!”
When I got pulled into the office, I didn’t expect to be offered something I should have worked for a year for but that I only worked for three months for!! Yet it was an offer I accepted willingly, fully, and with so much gratitude. Really!! I love being an early childhood educator. And I love my centre. So when they offered me a permanent position, there was absolutely nothing holding me back from accepting it.
Isn’t this how our God loves to meet us?!!
Not when I have life completely figured out. Not when I am being a good enough person. Not when I have enough faith to move a mountain.
But rather in a season in which I doubt His hand, He provides for me. In a moment of questioning His goodness, He shows me that He cares for me.
Sometimes it can be very difficult to navigate life as a single woman. The weight of responsibility can be heavy. Loneliness is often felt deeply. And it becomes even darker when my own family is not a safe space for me.
But something I’ve been learning this year is just how deeply my Heavenly Father loves me and cares for me.
And the way He met me this week with this offer from my centre, blew me away. Quite literally. For a whole day or so I felt so light and so free. And so, so loved.
The girl who once believed that He had made a mistake when He created her is now falling deeper and deeper in love with Him.
The girl who once thought He was distant and uninterested in her life is now learning to know the depth of His devotion to her.
This is truly Amazing Grace!!
This is truly unending love!
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